> Saturday, May 10, 2008
WHAT IS GROWING UP?
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My sis has been having problems with my parents because she wants to do what she thinks she can do better at rather than following the mainstream blindly, such as going to the University. Of course, my parents who always want the best for us disapprove of it, thinking that she will lose out to others. Afterall, Singaporeans have been told that success only comes from chasing paper qualifications.
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When my parents and sis told me their views, I immediately frowned at my sister's actions. I told her that I don't understand her, why she is always so ambitious and wants to be the best and that she is too (overly) serious& strict with herself. I said fortunately I don't expect much from myself and I laugh 75% of my day away and there's where I find my joy. and she said this
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"You think you can laugh all the way like you do now in your life? You just have not reached the age yet"
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And it dawned upon me that I was too quick with my words then. Perhaps when I reach her age, I will also be unsatisfied with my life.
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What exactly is growing up? When I was young, I wanted badly to grow up so that I can do away with restrictions. Now that I've grown up, my parents start to let me go slowly and I realised my happiest times in general was still when I was in their arms, when a cry could put everything that went wrong right. Afterall, how wrong can things go when you are 2?
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I am generally happy and satisfied with my life. I have a complete family with doting parents and caring sister. I have lovely people around me who care about me. I am blessed with good health. My studies didn't disappoint me greatly. Even the teachers I have are great. Despite all these, I will still feel disappointed with life at times. Sometimes I cannot understand certain people and their doings and get terribly hurt by their actions. Sometimes I cannot explain my actions and hurt others terribly with them. Afterall, life has its shades of grey, and during this moment, I am experiencing it. Life is complicated.
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.Anyway on a lighter note, I learnt about sunspots in Geog this week and I was so interested that I looked it up and tadah!
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The evil small spots that do more than they appear to be. They bring about terribly hot weather!
and crop circles that I learnt in GP. They just appear with no good reasons, and the designs are so pretty and abstract somemore!....
that's it. Blogging when my sky is no longer grey :)
that's it. Blogging when my sky is no longer grey :)
